i picture you under the mellow sky right after
sunrise
laughing
i feel calm, as if lofi music is playing

actually i'm listening to it right now
i'm supposed to be doing
work but
i'm thinking of you

i don't know where we'll be in
a couple years
but i hope you will be happy
and i will be happy
even if it's not with each other

i feel detached
i won't be looking for answers from
you anymore
i'm trying to look for them in myself

i have to be independent
how do i know my happiness is
from self-love if it's entangled
in what i feel for you?

i know you said that i can work on
myself by being with you but
i can only give out so much
love in the world

and right now i barely have
anything left to feel
i am struggling with
managing mentally and emotionally

i want whatever is left in me
to finally be invested in me

it's about time i think

i don't want to be loved by anyone
else
and i never thought i would come to a point where
i'm saying this
but i'm desperate for self-validation and self-love

i value myself more than i realise,
and i want myself to
look up at me too,
if that makes any sense

but i hope you will do well.    

i hope i will too.

i hope you understand.

sincerely,
the form of me that lives in your head
(i hope it isn't too bad)