Am I annoying? How bothering can I be? Sometimes I"m just so anxious that I'm just weird all the time, and to be honest, I"m scared most of the time. I can think of a few reasons why but primarily, it's people getting mad at me. I mean, it's fine. I'd be easily irritated at myself, too, if I met me. Another thing is that, because of the way I am, the way I act as a person, people see me as a "pick me" girl. Sure, I like attention and affection, but I"m just anxious a lot. I'm scared I'll be judged then end up doing something really embarrassing. I can never hide from it. It's always there no matter what I do. I've tried many ways to prevent it. No matter what, though, I'm always gonna be seen as that odd girl who lacks a lot of knowledge and acts childish as ****. My mind thinks people only hang out with me because they only feel bad for me. Honestly, though, I'm not surprised. I wonder who I would call friends if I was perfectly okay and my life wasn't a total **** show. Honest to god, though, I"m scared to die, but at the same time, I can't wait till my time has come. Once everything is all over, I can finally be released from my pain. Sure, you'd think I'm exaggerating, but I don't care. I already promised that I wouldn't commit suicide, so don't worry, you're not reading a suicide letter. Unless you never know. A person can always change their minds... sometimes.