don't know how to feel
happy or sad.
today!
today is a special day
it's been 2 week & then I got a day like this

a day with out crying again alone
a day with out self-consoling
not because I want to
but because I couldn't
not because I am alone again
but because I am alone again in a crowd

there was no day swaying god
to give me a day like this
but I think I should again sway him
to say not in this way
how hard to hold!!
how hard to push a smile
where only this pity curves knows that it's fake

well....another day of hope with shattered heart
another day of waiting for sunrise being in a trench
waiting for hook to pull up to show a light

until then let me again leave this drop of tear while writing...