for one second i thought
that i finally figured things out

the next second i thought
that i finally could be proud
of me
for once

the second after i thought
that id be finally allowed
to hope again

but then i thought
that it snowed yesterday

i live in spain,
where snow is smt that may be special  for once
but doesn’t
remain

seemed like it got lost somehow
in a territory where it didn’t belong

just like my thoughts that weren’t fitting to my playlist and its usual songs

three seconds