**** it, what do I need to do to get someone to notice me?
Pay attention to me!
Do I have to cut myself some more?
Or should I burn down a house?
******, I'll punch you in the mouth if you'd
just
*******
punch
me
back.
Please!
Am I a ghost? Doomed to wander in this same rut, caught in anxiety and a desperate need to please?
**** that, I'm through trying to please people,
I tried that,
and no one will look at me anyway!
So what do I have to do?
Steal a car?
Break your heart?
**** someone?
**** myself?

**** it, say something!
******* react!
Blank walls.
An Ode to you
To the friends I have, I show you my open arms every last time.
So why is it that when I'm at my worst you send me a thank you letter written in scribbled cursive scribed on your *******?
I love you! I love you!
It isn't my fault I'm scared!
But is this not of my own making, where I won't tell you that I'm not okay?
If I let myself be used…

But I send off all the signals.
I write on the walls in blue and red and neon green, same as that TV you stare at.
Why don't you stare at my sitcom?
It's about a girl ******* herself over so often that the foot up her *** is coming out her mouth.
**** it, ******* know me!
Know me!