The tears sneak up on me and well in my eyes
My chest begins to quiver, as I realize
once again that I miss you like hell
as often as those feelings I have tried to expel.
I thought this would be easy
That I could just say goodbye and walk away
But I find myself wondering
If you're going to be okay.
When our bonds were strong & not a day went by
That we would talk or chat or text & either laugh or cry.
Is this pain caused by the love, or the worry, or the hole
That was left in my heart when from you my heart i stole.
Not just once, or twice but 3 times
I gave it to you and reclaimed it.
And with it I stole yours too
And upon return I maimed it.
I don't want to cry but its my only consolation
I have no control over it, so i surrender - resignation.
The pain of knowing that we will never work
As great as my love grew for you
It is acceptance of the irrevocable fact
That our past and our future is through.
So the pain the emptiness consumes me
Eating me from the inside out
Devouring my soul leaving me hollow.