why the hell              
did seeing that
hurt so ******* much
i don't love you
but *******            
that hurt                                        
to see you loving someone else
ouch        

i don't even know
why this would hurt
but the knife in my chest
at seeing that                          
******* killed me

and no,            
you'll never know
that this poem
is for you              
so
you won't know
how to stop                      
this pain
because you don't know
it's you causing it