Wracked with guilt
Stories telling me
   you're not good enough
   you're not kind enough
   you're not patient enough
   you're not enough
Leaving a huge hole

In this hollow state
A shell of a human
   i float
Adrift on the currents of life

Not knowing
   where to tether
Not knowing
   how to choose
   my landfall
Which filling station
   to trust

I take tentative steps
   guarded
   aloof
Not willing to risk
What is left
Of my humanity