I am in misery I am in misery I am in misery I am alone I am alone I am in misery I can not take it too much longer I am alone. I am in misery I am alone I am unloved But I am "loved" With love that is an idea of me I am a fraud I am selfish I am caring because it moves me to care Because I care No one truly knows me No one is moved to know me God help me. I am a mystery No one desires to solve me But I know I'm not a mystery To me I am alone I don't have anyone matching me I don't have anyone to talk to No where is safe Every where there are knives Stabbing me I am pierced My soul is in agony Oh God! I don't know what to do I'm going to die But I can't I won't hurt the ones I love No one understands No one Not one And I depended on myself to be loving And I failed I failed I am wrong. I am a misfit I am tortured and stuck in in-between land Jane Austin and Elizabeth Barrett Browning look at my walls underneath wall papered hydrangeas torn and flawed I thought I was someone else then who I was I am a fraud A hypocrite Without character Someone under a light facing the mirror I am the death of me A thousand blankets I need To hide from this cruel world To hide me from me. I am in misery.