ventriloquism
invasion echoes my voice
i was forced
never granted a choice

completely detached from reality
i won’t ever come to you,
I’m sorry
blinding lights pierce my eyes
aware of my skin and bones
but there’s no safe haven for me like home

life was meaningless
i serve no purpose
burdened others with my existence
the days felt like years
couldn’t clog the pipes to stop my tears
every fear reprimanded me my present

my heart is empty and my mind is heavy
i prayed for a mind reader
take a moment and stop
to connect the dots
but in their hearts i got lost
a message too complex to get across

a lifesaver
silent behavior
nothing but a passerby
they carry on with their lives


I wish I had a me in my life.