I listen to breathing
Your lungs steadily rise and fall
Wishing I knew you
Who you are behind your wall

But you never let me in
Doesn't matter how hard I try
Honesty not part of your vocabulary
Whole life you were taught to lie

It's challenging to break cycle
Easier going round and round
Understand why you live like this
This routine to which you are bound

I lay tired head on your chest
Sick of endless games
Beg to light my inner fire
Am shocked when I am burnt by the flames

It makes no sense to me
How I love what hurts the most
Seems I am craving the presence
A flickering pale ghost

Because old you has been dead for years
One who captured my heart
The same feelings for him carry on
Stronger than at the start

But you cannot return same emotion
Not even your fault
Experience taught you to hide
Softness deep within a vault

So you put on a front and act tough
So others will think you are hard
But I know the reason you're covered in armor
Because underneath you're scared and scarred

I put my arm around your body
Wondering where your hands have been
But am overwhelmed by the relief
Of seeing you again

In the months of silent agony
I endured when you said goodbye
Each minute alone felt like an eternity
I struggled just to get by

I realized how much I depended on you
Not only for financial support
You were the root of all my happiness
Without I came up short

Snuggled up right beside you
Emotions come flooding back
I am hit so hard by the heavy high
It feels exactly like a smack

I mentally curse my own weakness
For forgiving you without hesitation
But I am starving for your affection
After such extreme deprivation

Maybe it is all part of your plan
You know exactly how to get under my skin
No matter how badly I strive to stay strong
When it comes to you I never win

I don't know why I even bother to try
We both are aware how this will end
With a magnificent explosion
And my shattered heart to mend

Yet I still offer it up to you
To use however you please
I am disgusted with the way
You control it with such ease

Like a puppeteer you pull the strings
To move me to desired position
Break my bones bending over backwards
Misery of my own volition

Your fingers wrap around my leg
Like tendrils from growing vines
And it's like the sun
Moon
And each shining star
In the galaxy aligns

Because you make my universe complete
Your energy makes my world spin round
It's cheesy but if I am telling the truth
You are by far the greatest thing I have found

I don't even need to look elsewhere
To know for me you are the best
Life is a stormy ocean
Waves crashing down
And you are my life vest

I need you like I need oxygen
Alone I suffocate
You are the single element
Able to make my lungs inflate

By myself I feel like I can't breathe
The stress becomes too hard to bear
Gasping until I am near you once more
And your body provides essential air

You will always possess the key to my heart
So there is no use in pretending
Despite the chaos
Late nights
And games
I still believe you are my happy ending