How to heal a world that's turned upside down. Everyone life put on pause or moments of joy taken away. Wanting an old life back the new one feels gutted. Everything lost some things are replaceable others all you want is more time.
Being careful then finding out you are positive already distant forced to stay away. You worry about your loved one. Work and home no outside life a scary world some believe others don't. Once it spreads within your family it's the worse. Watching and there's nothing you can do.
Writing to stay sane fill that void the hole within never happy or satisfied with life. Made the most of things family like a shadow casting on you. Dealing with the guilt all the burden. Always in a fight life is tough ready to walk away this struggle within. Letting go of the hurt like a security blanket. This new anguish taking its toll all new. Hurting from the inside out. Screaming into a pillow hoping to release tension.