just want someone to talk to
when i'm unsure of the path
and see through the panic
i try to mask with a laugh
paint it as a joke
so it doesn't seem so bad
knowing **** well
it's tearing me in half

just want someone to listen
when i feel i have to be quiet
labeled unimportant feelings
so i try to hide it

but it kills me inside
not knowing what to say
feeling all the pain
but not being able to explain
not knowing the words
to articulate
the particular kind of shame
that swallows me everyday