He woke up felt what's next? He was trying to grow but didn't feel stimulated but numb. They broke his heart he his it showed no emotions. He just shut down didn't waste any energy on them. He felt betrayed by these people he admired them emotionally invested in them. They used and lied to him he was done. Fed up by the deceit. He wondered why no one  owned up quick to have issues or being sensitive.
They deflected his feelings rejected his ways off life. He didn't need much to be happy made the most of things. So weird and crazy. Never having time to deal or feel