you broke through my defense
with helo
then we skipped the light fandango
and

Oh
you dont even know
I gaze into outer space
and in everything i see
traces of you
in color
i see hues
that you
look divine in

my favorite pastime

re- live
our time
in my mind
its a volatile
couldren of stark
raving
gladness
even though
youre with  someone
else  
my friend
i love you
staight through
without end
there is nothing that could ever
tame
the pure freedom you bring
I know you hate the nick-name
MOUSER
you are my
Raison d'être
and you complimented
that by   making my
entire life sanguine
you left without being mean
didnt cause a sceen
said not one
disparaging
thing




U are simple
my favorite
day dream
picturing u

I
Transcend
into
you
AND
you should know
u
could never ever
comprehend
the sublime intervention
you ushered
in

the intensity of
what you have
given me
there arent words to say the
least
we havent even
come up with an emotion
that could handle it.
my love for everything has increased
during a time when

My life had been
entangled
by the
Infidel-a
cruel ela
careless  
Jezabel-a
mistress
of painfull
memories
maestro
of the
wailing
cathedros of woe
I questioned every poor decision
made
!
I drew her out of bleak
misery filled her with self pride  placed her on a pedestal
alas
I
soon discovered
I  could not vanquish
the evil
that had  been done to her
and in the summer of my  life
my Machiavellian
soul mate
my ex
wife  
tortured defiled and
smiled  
saunterd away
not only left me bleeding
but also said she didnt respect me because
I kept taking her back
after her cheating
meanwhile convincing
everyone
it was me
because i never said anything
its embarrassing
I was taught
not to air your ***** laundry
and maybe thats just me
but its common knowledge  
not to lie
  It s irrelevant
I cant spend more words
on it

Defeated rejected standing at the brink
i lost hope felt ugly  
an as unsexy
as a
Muh
YOU
APPEARED

youre sweet essence
and genuine interest
carried me through
you
are the
total eclipse
of my
unhappiness
mmm

nnn  


since I met u im
confident in every decision and mistake
Ever made

out of the montage
of
chaos
every single step
had to be made
in order for
me
to behold youre
unquenchable
beauty

my drug of
choice
YoU


addicted

and im sick  
i want you
so badly
and my
heart home and arms
no matter what will always
be


open

my
friend
im just jazzed to be here
and to have
met you
thank you
and
P.S.
In case you dont know

I
Love
YOU