unmotivated
but can't manage to be okay with doing nothing
when the alarm goes off i feel sick to my soul
but at least i'm gonna do something
so i don't have to hate myself anymore
or not as much as i would have
because ignoring all my responsibilities
just makes me feel more bad
but if i could choose my reality
i would be nothing for a couple years
no thoughts no loneliness no rush
no disappointment no people no fear