a bullet is settled in the pit of my stomach as foreign arms are wrapped around me the pain is comforting, but it's only temporary the steady drum of your heart as my acquaintances drink their life away i hear your apologies and compliments you paint my skin red my heart aches because in a few months, i'll be gone with only lead poisoning to remind me of you the scratches won't scar and bruises won't stain apple whiskey was never so comforting you've read my book and wanted to be a chapter you'll only be a few pages worth i'm sorry for your attachment to me just know, i'll never stop thinking about your gun between my legs and the exhilarating fear you made me feel