I was in a shattered state,
damaged, enraged, faded,
blaming myself for you
leaving me, hurting me,
retaliating against me,
making me cry
without even acknowledging my pain,
how I was dealing
with your departure,
trapped in this torture,
yearning for your love,
to see as you were,
all astonishing, tall,
and utterly handsome.

I was relieving it all,
thinking about the many
phone calls that had me
falling so hard for you,
adoring your deep tone,
longing for you
to come to my home,
to lay with me, hold me, kiss me,
make me believe in you even more,
touch me in my sweet spot,
tantalizing my heart,
controlling my body
with your hot spark.

I could’ve drowned
in your astounding pleasures,
being loved so right
for the first time
in my life without any faults,
being in your arms,
feeling safe,
not wishing to escape from you,
but to reel myself in closer to you,
loving you undyingly.