Why do I always end up with boys with C names
A pit in my stomach you crawled out of
you wouldn’t believe me if I said I fly under giants sometimes
I’d believe anything you told me

I’ll never unsee you that night
I'm glad pain happens in the first place
And if I wait and wait and wait
And allow the sun to soak in my skin
Can you come closer again

I don’t want my dreams because of you
In between awake and falling down the hole again
I kept avoiding your eyes because they are matches
my skin is burning in patches, of grass, of abandonment
Lights fade in and out
I keep seeking predictions other people want to give me
But I also know that the whole point is that I’m not supposed to know yet
These things reveal on their own