if i had a big red rubber ball i think i'd be happy. i think i could smile. i could walk down the sidewalk, and bounce it and try not to think about my little brothers' and sisters' faces try not to think how little jesse would love a big red rubber ball or how miriam would try to stand on it or how john would kick it as far as he could or how elayna would paint it mid- air
if i had a big red rubber ball i could be happy for a couple of seconds until i started to think ...but maybe those seconds would be worth it... if you love me give it to me but then take it away