angonising insecurities
hot tears and cyanide-sweet guilt
turning ashen on my tongue
your gentle love brands me
an unwitting reminder
of hollow heart
oscillating, fury and despair
incapable of providing
warmth, selfless sacrifice
vines of all that is ugly
warping invisible moral pillars
leaving behind a crumbling artefact
secrets lost to acid tears
and my soul's brittle foundations
and tempestuous nature, ruinous
self-loathing and denial
boundary walls reinforced
with steely reticence and
double-edged grief

I don't deserve you
I don't deserve you