I am a grenade... A ticking time bomb.
No one knows when I will go off, or how much destruction I will cause. I don’t even know that myself.
I have seen in my dreams the end result of the explosion. How it will shatter and crush the lives of those that cherish me.
When my mind deteriorates and my mental state collapses in on me, my dark thoughts tell me to let go. To pull the pin. But I know I can not give in to those voices.
That’s why no matter what happens, no matter how bad my mind gets, I MUST FIGHT. I am not allowed to leave this world yet. Too many lives rely on me. My light, soul and essence are still needed in this world.
I am a grenade, but I will not pull the pin.