From the moment I heard the news,
I waited so anxiously, I waited on you.
Even though afraid,
my love couldn't be contained.

Words can't describe the feeling,
of hearing your first cry.
The love can't be explained,
the first time looking you in the eyes.

I found my reason for why my life was spared.
To be your dad, together a pair.
As lonely as I was, you gave me joy.
It's like you sang to my heart, and filled that void.

The first 4 years,' you was always by my side.
The first 4 years, 'only through you, the pain  could I hide.
You was my reason, you was my life,
You was my sanity, through my strife.

The most difficult thing was leaving you.
Then the judge awarded your mother, after nothing she would do.
Sleeping with me every night.
Then living day by day, fight after fight.

It's been almost 5 years to the day,
and to be honest my son, your the only reason I want to pray.
It's not right, but life's not fair.
The wicked seems to rise, while the good live in despair.

Now my life has come full circle, and I'm living this lie.
I have no more heart, I have no tears to cry.
All I want is to be by you.
All I need is to see them baby blues.

9 years old in only a few days.
and here I am hurting in so many ways.
Why God? Why?
To you I prayed. I would cry and cry.

Oh well. It's not me who decides, what is right and wrong.
I guess I had it coming all along.
Nobody knows this pain I constantly feel.
Nobody knows the sadness I have to endear.

So here I sit and type,
just for you on this lonely night.
I lift my fingers and say with pride.
You are the only thing in my heart that resides.