not a first choice
but why would i be
i'm flawed and disordered
got low self esteem
depressed as ****
cocktail of anxieties
who'd wanna be
caught dead with me
put strain on every relationship
in my vicinity

it's almost as if
i do it on purpose
people must think
i like feeling worthless
if its any consolation
i'm having a horrible time as well
if you find it exhausting
how much i hate myself
imagine actually being me
living is ******* hell

wouldn't it be great
if i could take life as it is
not read into every situation
until i feel like ****
if i could just not think
i'd do it without a thought
but i can't so that why i think
everyone would be better off
if i grew a set of *****
and put an end to it all