can't be by myself anymore
i think too much when i'm alone
too many nights ended crying
over something i saw on my phone
cause i'm not skinny enough or pretty enough
and i don't have many friends
now that i think about
do i even have any friends

deeper darker
out of sight
somewhere far
some place to hide
i'm stuck inside
my self-destructive mind
suprisingly
i don't actually want to die
i'm just struggling to find reasons
to stay alive

can't trust myself anymore
or other people for that fact
i'm too sensitive for intervention
but can't afford to relapse
but when i'm buried under obligations
and it's gets hard to see
reasons to carry on
how could you blame me

finally alone
but i feel no better
life is supposed to be
better together
but i just feel
tethered
plucked and feathered
poked and pestered
feels like i'll feel like this
forever