I feel so alone.
In the pit of my stomach, I am alone.
With a dear friend in the next room, I am alone.
still.
no matter what.
I feel it in the quiet moments.
why?
It's like a bit black stain, a gaping hole in my sternum.
completely empty.
I don't understand why.
I just want someone to hold me, know me, accept me.
But when I get the chance, I'm too afraid of getting hurt.
****.

I just want to have fun.

*******. I want to be known. Loved.