(TW Eating Disorders)
I wrap a corset tight around my waist till I cannot breathe
Ribbons in the air catch my eye
They cinch tighter and tighter
But not tight enough
My mirror reflects a pig with fabric barely fitting around
“More” I demand
And so they wrap
And wrap
reaching not only my stomach but to my arms and legs
My head light and eyes sunken in
The colorful streams leaving marks and pushing down
I look in the mirror and cry
“Will it ever be enough?”
My bones pop and my mind gets fuzzy
Concerned looks from family and a few talks as well
They say they’re concerned for my health
They ask me if I'm eating
(Sometimes I do, or it ends up coming up and out of my throat)
Colorful ribbons dance around my head
Leaving white spots twirling in front of my eyes like delicate ballerinas with each pirouette a throb in my head
The world spins and my head vibrates
My stomach growls
I ache and crack
but I'm skinny
and that's all that matters