When you close your eyes
Where does your mind go
Where do your thoughts lead you
I see darkness

My mind shows me darkness
The worst parts of me
Tells me why I can never be free
Why I won't ever feel

Showing me my past
It guides my ways
Tearing me apart as it stays
Fixated on my weakness

I feel miserable
As tears roll down my cheek
As memories flow like blood
Of moments I couldn't speak

Every open eyed interaction
Only cemented my thoughts
That I cannot and should not
Try

Try to feel
Should not want

My eyes close and I see only darkness