I feel very stuck sometimes, between stubbornness and pride. That when I look into their eyes, I feel like I am feeling shamed, but that isn't mine, that isn't now, it was them and it was then. I feel like a small child, digging my heels into a non-existant ground, because I did something wrong, and won't give into admitting it. Than it comes back to my current self, the one that was and yet still kind of is. and I rip the demon from my back, and pray that when I am vulnerable next, it won't come back for seconds. But I know it will, until I am strong enough to make it not, but until then, I still have Them, the ones that will protect me the way no one else would, the ones that love me the way that they didn't. But now I am here, still not quite sure what that means, but one day I will, and I will be that girl I saw in the double reflection of the glass door.
Not extremely poetic, just didn't have my notebook on me.