Every day is once again too precious; a journey, step by step of thirteen years evaporates to salt like drying tears. The salt not wasted, rubbed in wounds so specious, wrapped in bandaged memory, bound tight and bloodless by layers of adhesive time. A wish, a prayer, a moment from my prime when all could be accomplished, all was light. Each morning wakens heavy, trudges on Promethius's odyssey to night still hoping rolling stones may be diverted. Reality re-dawns; all hope is gone. The uphill climb remains to make aright what gifts that born in grace became perverted.
It's the largest truth I have right now. It will not get better...but I will.