i'm sorry that i dont love myself
and that that keeps me from being truthful
i'm sorry i can't be vulnerable
and that when i crash its brutal
that i take you down with me
when i can't float any longer
you give me the benefit of the doubt
and i cant return that honor
i'm sorry that you have me
when i know you deserve much better
i'm sorry that because i'm like this
you can't help but feel tethered
i'm sorry you feel like you need to fix me
and save me from monsters i summoned myself
i'm sorry that i ****** you into
my own personal hell
i'm sorry i didn't let you go
when i knew i wasn't capable of being
the kind of person you deserve
not a patient you're committed to treating
**** i'm sorry
so sorry i dont know what to do
as much as i wanna let you in
i refuse to lean on you
because as much as you deserve
to know the truth
it'd be wrong to put it on you
so i'll try and make some room
to hold it in
and keep it down
i love you
but you shouldn't have to drown