It looks like you're stuck in a little box of Hell. Emotional Hell. The worst kind. It makes everything else hurt so much more, everything is just even more real than before. It's like you're trapped, in your box, that's closed tight, and will be buried, and you'll be six feet under with emotional Hell. You'll wonder to yourself, how on earth did you get here, why in the **** world are you in this mess, and why does everything and everyone hurt so much. Then your own head doesn't help you, because then you start to think of everything you've done wrong, everything you ******* up accidentally or on purpose. You'll imagine you deserve this ******* Hell when you don't. You do not deserve this, you are better than this. Kick and scream fight your way out. Don't you ever let this trapped feeling win, don't let it take you to emotional Hell. Head up and push on, knock down those strict walls, you can do it, you are so much stronger than you think, you are so much better than you think. It'll all come to an end, and your walls will be knocked down, and you can be you again. You had to grow up too soon, you had felt the wrath of uncontrollable emotions. But you are not alone, I was there too. But I got out, and so can you.