Never had a chance but pursing opportunity. Biting this lip to be courteous of others most are rude talking about you when you said nothing about them. Trying not to be bad and lower yourself to their level. Not reaction showing no feelings or emotions not letting them get to you. Once good to them now keeping a distance because they expect you to change but not making any effort to be a person. Before they'd rub you the wrong way, mocking your ways provoking to bring out your worse when you told yourself be better