I'm behind a wall and I'm trying to break through
I wonder what you'd think of me, if you only knew
I'm not always behind it, sometimes I'm right out front
It's always when I'm feeling brave, like it's a big stunt
I opened up my heart and I let you walk inside
but the wall is still there and sometimes I run and hide
I go for a long drive just to get away from fear
but no matter how long or far I ago, it always seems so near
I want to be the one that you hold in bed each night
I don't want to be in this mode of constant fight of flight
why can't I just be normal and affectionate and free?
why do I always overthink stuff and never just be me?
I know I have to tell you, or it will never work
and if I don't let it out, then I'll feel like a ****
I want to believe in myself and the love that's in my heart
to promise loyalty and love until death do us part
So if you really love me, as you said you do
I hope it can be in the same way, that I love you too