This doesn't feel right.

I don't wanna
feel this way.

Because every time I do,

I hate it.

It never feels okay.

I always lose
this stupid fight.

Why do I try?

Why do I muster
my strength and might?

I don't wanna meet
someone without
being a whole.

Companionship is important

but

I don't wanna be
a half-empty person
with a half-assed soul.

I don't wanna need
someone else.

That feels wrong.

Give me independence.

Then let me
revel in it...

So I can be strong.

I don't wanna
make that
mistake again.

I don't wanna
feel suffocated
inside that pain.

I hate it.

Every moment
of it, wretched.

It's never
how they say
it should feel.

It's not real.

Just add it
to the list
of things I dread.