Why am I tired all the time? The fact is I am not. I only sleep all the time to escape. Escape the world, to escape the truth. The truth that I'm slowly rotting away and on one seems to care. The truth is I am in constant never ending pain.the truth that I am weak and shy. The truth that no one wants me. The truth that I am nothing but a waste of space. The truth that no matter how hard I try I will never be good enough. I will never be someone's first choice or even their second. I will never compare to any of the girls my age.the truth that I have to bury how I don't upset those around me. But when I close my eyes I am transformed into a new world. A world where I am the main character. Where I am beautiful and everyone loves me. Where I am strong and powerful; where people fear me. Where I soar above thing that once weighted me down like boulders. I am happy and the pain that consumes me disappeared. where I no longer want to my suffering. Where I am at peace ad everything is quiet for once. But I always open my eyes and I am reminded that none of it is real. And I will always be a shattered pain of glass that can never be fixed. So I'm not tired; sleeping is just my only escape. Sleeping is my drug that I will aduse hoping it kills me.