Its what"is"
Thats the only
Thing relevent
The only thing
Thee...... ......only......
Right now ..... stone cold sober......
Im sure i could be
..........and i know ....ya know.......
**** man i dont know ........
I take that back
I know this ......
Oh it hurts though ......I aint tryin to bring anybody down ........
I appologise
...guess this is sorta anonymous.....i mean no ones gonna see this ...snot and tears
And the ugly face all grimmaced and red barkin convulsive like hungry seal.......
Askin stupid **** outloud over and over .
As i sit here alone in my ex wifes room ......
After just loosing my father..........
On the anniversary of loosing my mother ........
Its new years day ...........at noon........
My ex "Is " still out with her new.      
(*******)
Lover ....oh .I
No.........I
Know this "is"
How my love goes ...........
I sit here with our Son.......
Hes so amazing ...Im so proud ....its hard not
To let him see me cry .  ...
It just. ........."IS"