I can’t choke it back the feeling lascivious. Hissing the word is fitting
Malevolence rock solid. How do I know what this feels like? Can’t I choke it back? Touch anyways?
Wake, drenched in sweat. Angels take my dreams take them, take them please. Peel back the heavy floral scratching duvet.
There’s a boy and a girl a girl and a boy in a bed a bed big and wide and full of girl girl girl boy. I don’t like that side.
Come with me won’t you? Personal barrier reef, exempt I suppose and you didn’t want to scared you were scared and I was scared.
I can’t choke it back. Blue panels, outside the dirt hill we played on ants on their mound you can see it from the window. It’s always cold in this room full of ghosts and fog thick grey suffocating.
Radiator bangs startle. The mattress against the wall slam against it full speed. Dizzy. Why was there a mattress against the wall?
I tense. There’s something there two inches too far back I can’t quite grasp. A feeling, the way my stomach goes acidic and my knees draw together.
Buzzing in my head. Flies. They bombard my orifices nose mouth ears I can’t breath can’t hear
Delicate vulnerability plays out grab, tighter now, laugh. I go numb arms limp, useless. Veins stop pumping my cold blood and eyes take it upon themselves to warm the face.
It’s getting better. Grab me hard, I barely cry now just shake, numb and separate body and mind. Oil and water.