A thousand thoughts surround me
Like crashing waves they drown me
Choking and gasping,
Kicking and screaming,
I fight them off all around me

In a hazy dream I face
Twins of myself, staring with disgrace
One in a tux
One in a dress
Both with a gun to my face

I awake with a sigh to see what id done
Blood and tears glinting in the morning sun
I guess I'm a fraud
Who ******* some god
And loaded and shot that gun

Whether I'm a guy, girl or neither
My souls wandering in the lonely ether
It doesn't matter now
But still I wonder how
I ever thought I could be her