i'm so tired. please let me give up. i don't want to be here anymore. please dear god, let me leave. my hands are trembling with exhaustion. i don't want to be here anymore. i go to sleep every night hoping i don't wake up. i wake up every morning disappointed i did. i don't want to be here anymore. i'm so tired. PLEASE let me give up. i don't want to be here anymore. i don't want to be here anymore. i don't want to be here anymore.