Is it a choice?

I don't know what to think or feel I want you and I can't have you anymore so I walk along and pray I don't feel this pain anymore.

I tried calling you like your gone pick up so I just forget you don't want hear from me. My heart is pain.

Fast Forward 2 years later

I am happy with a men that deserve me and my love. He loves me and he takes care of me and I take care of him. He asked me to marry him I said yes.

I think too myself have I healed enough to move on from my past hurt I say no. So I break off my engagement and take a trip and defined who I really am and why can't I keep it together.