even when I tell people that I don't know what I'm doing they don't believe me because of how much I've lied to myself and the way that the seasons change less now because it's just hot all the time now and when it's cold it doesn't even snow it just hurts but maybe I just stopped enjoying christmas and love but I know I did love him except sometimes I think I've changed but then I'm in bed and I have too many pills and my stomach is too big so maybe next time when I'm merging on the highway I won't make it but will you even remember me?
For the girl with pigtails I'm sorry that this is me and I said I wouldn't but sometimes you just need to go to Jupiter and maybe Mars too but only on a bad day and I've been having a lot of those but don't forget who you are because everyone else will