****** up
ain't no other way to put it
got me ****** up
head in my hands feeling stupid
like it's my fault
you just had to ruin this
made a ******* promise
and couldn't keep to it

shut the **** up
none of it matters at this point
is it ****** up
i gag at the sound of your voice
like its my fault
you went and made that choice
oh now i'm supposed to feel bad
cause it's wrong to find joy

in watching you cry
over the blessings you lost
you got what you wanted
but never asked at what cost
you're shaking you head
but can't shake out the thoughts
wishing there was a way
to turn those feelings off

cause the guilt is eating you
and the regret swallows you whole
the fact that you can't undo what you did
leaves holes in your soul
all those hands you let touch you
yet not a single one to hold
when they made you feel so warm
couldn't imagine they'd leave you so cold