wasn't trying to be dramatic
i just needed to get away
didn't wanna worry all of you
but i was itching for some kind of break
everywhere i turned
i felt like i was being reminded
of why i feel so unlovable
drowning in thoughts and too weak to fight them
i want to be there for you
i want to be okay
if i could i would
but i just wont be able to today
i wanna be who you thought i was
i wanna be kind and sweet and thoughtful
but i feel like an imposter
and how my insecurities bloom in my doubt feels so awful
my god do i wanna be happy
and do i wish you wanted me back
if i could sleep and wake up to world
where i was known for something other than being sad