A
is the ache
You leave behind
when you leave

B
is the broken
Person I was
before I had you

C
is the carvings
on my wrist
that you kiss

D
is the sense of defeat
I often felt
when I was alone

E
is the elatedness
that fills me
when we speak to each other

F
is the friends
that I made
because you believed I had to give them
a chance

G
is the good
I can finally see
that's always been around me

H
is the hope
that you give me
that I'll see another day

I
is the imagination
that graces my mind
when I think of you

J
is the joy
that you give me
even when you're gone

K
is the kindness
you showed me
that fixed me

L
is the love
that I feel
because I have you

M
is the time I mourned
when you were gone
for good

N
is the newness
of the empty feeling I get
now that you left

O
is being ostracized
because I'm too depressing
to be around

P
is the pain
I feel when I see
Happy couples everywhere

Q
is the quiet
indifference I feel
towards every **** thing

R
is the refrain
it takes me
not to plunge that knife
into my throbbing heart

S
is the suffering
I feel to get through
every ******* day

T
is the torture
I put myself through
looking at our old photographs

U
is the underwhelming
need to live
dissipitating day by day

V
is the vows
you promised to make
but you didn't make it.

W
is the words
you used to say
to make the pain go away

X
is the mark
on the calender
of the anniversay we didn't have

Y
is the question
I ask everyday
since you died

Z**
is the end
of this poem
of our love
forever

All these alphabets
mean something to me
no amount of morphine
Takes the pain away from me

You made me happy
and now that you're gone
I'm back to the ghost
I once was