In my room
Ruminating
Counting all my misses
Discounting all my blessings

Swinging from moods
like happiness is my spouse
Versus the rest of my emotions
In a Vegas hotel
Where other room keys are being grabbed for
With great trepidation

i'm still waking up alone

I'll find her somewhere raging in my veins with
My darling madness and her trigger finger itch
While I'm balling my fists
Divine intervention decides who wins

In the summertime I become more manic
The sun becomes my touch of fire
Prometheus rising out of panic

Doctor doctor,
Thanks for the chemicals
But I wanna feel more than just "ok" all the time.
Detox to make me God some of the time
while the rest of the time
I'm just running on empty
From a routine
Back to my room
ruminating.