I'm not depressed
I just have this constant overriding feeling that I don't want to be alive
But that's not depression
I just think other people's lives would be a lot better if I was never in them
But that's not depression
Just a wish for me to go away
Never been born
Never existed
But if you asked if I'm depressed?
I'll say no
I'm not
I just don't find happiness in the life I am living
That's not depression
I'm just missing my drive
My will
To live
But if I were to talk to someone
Like a professional
They would call it depression
Probably send me to an institution
But I'm not depressed
Maybe I just don't want to realize
There is something wrong with me
So, I'm not depressed
I just wallow in self-hatred
Not seeing a reason for my existence
It's not depression
It's just--
It's not