John Cage once told me that a crossroads was where he came to where he had to do a decision about whether to go in the direction of what he intended or in the direction of what he didn't intend and that he decided to go in the direction of what he didn't intend. I was going to have great northern beans. I instead ate kidney beans. The not-doing of this doing that I am doing is always present. See, I am resting while I am not resting.