I miss the way I relied on lies
That ounce of faith I had before the goodbyes
**** I loved the idea of torture
I know its messed up but I needed to feel something
Tell me you have tried to avoid the right thing to test a boundary
Not the intention to hurt but the intention to learn
That rush in your chest
Every doubt coming out for the best
Leaving your comforts out there to be wrecked
I wouldn't wish anyone that sort of pain
But since that experience I don't look at myself the same