I know what I said
I know what you said
Though I wish I didn’t hear your words that hurt like a 1000 bee sting in my chest
My heart hit the dirt that I can’t clean even with waters of the sea. I hate and I hate and hate the words he spoke
I hate and hate the tongues he used to scream in my ear
I wish it was word of lyrics to my ear but they were nothing but pain
“Didn’t mean a thing”
How?
Why?
Was the things I told not mean a thing? Was the world I wanted to give not enough? Was the heart I gave you nothing but a moment of being complacent?
“Only a moment of feeling that’s not worth the wild” “ not worth the time” how can my tongue not repeat when it hurts so much! Told a lie, pushed him away with the  wind of the south
Build the burlón wall to keep my heart from beating
Broke the Golden Gate Bridge to keep a sea of distance
I know what I said
Swallowed my own words
To keep you from knowing the truth
I called him brother to make my heart a living hell
Build a dungeon to keep my thought in
Lit a fire beneath my feet to burn myself
I know what I said
Duty comes first but my cold, selfish, evil heart speaks the truth I wish to drown at the bottom of the Atlantic Ocean
The selfish heart I stabbed beyond the lives of this cruel world kept healing
I know what you said
Though how am I to heal that pain?
Why can’t I let you go? Why did I let you in or did you come uninvited? How do I keep hating you?